on saturday i went out and the past few weekends all I basically do is consume coffee. i literally drink too much coffee and its not healthy anymore.

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who cares about finals tomorrow? My needs are watching The Vow. 
… my second time.

and eating lots of pancakes atst. 

Relationship timeline down the aisle <3 

everything that was right at the wrong time.

jane mia and i just earlier bored.

so, turning 20 tomorrow.
what i have done at the age of 19:
- read numerous pages of shit i dont have interest in 
- get calluses
- mosquito bites
- eyebags
-  write on my notebooks endlessly
- sit on my ass 6 times a week for about 12 hours minimum
- have no life
- have no leisure

basically, i have no fun mostly.

its okay, today starts a new life for me. i’ve made a revised list of goals. i have no

priority but.. no one for now since im alone. 
here’s to me being 20. im not even remotely excited. 
 

my baby brother and I :) heee. i love him very much. he’s 9 but i treat him like he’s 2. i don’t kid.

also my hair’s been short for more than a week now. i’m still not used to it. but whatcha gonna do, i was annoyed by it being frizzy and ugly already. oh well. idk as long as its not annoying anymore idk if i look like a man. its ok. convenience wins.

I’ve never met anyone that sleeps in an automatic split second like how Gil does. It amuses me. lol.

yesterday, september 21st, was the worst day that i ever lived through.
+ i spilt water on myself early in the morning
+ i dropped my laptop and used it as a weapon
+ because of me my friends apartment key broke
+ my allergies are getting worse
+ some CI bitched about my shoes
+ i made an unnecessary scene in front of people
+ i wasted my money on lots of choco crunchies
+ and yesterday i got my period. again. the last time i had it? 13 days ago. 
thats twice in one month. idek anymore. 

i hung out with these people among others on saturday. fun.

sometimes i seriously dont know what i even do with my face.

my mac shouldn’t have photobooth. no laptops should have webcams. when i’m really bored - like now, this is all i do. take scary pictures of myself. and eat.

- i’m going to the province on tuesday, i think. im coming back friday. i’m bored in here. everyone’s going away. the dorm is boring, my roommate’s been gone for 3 days, all I do is waste money on random stuff.. 
- school starts on the 6th already. hay. i’m not ready for those sleepless nights and endless note-taking again. oh well.
- i’m kind of bummed about not being able to go home, but that’s okay. either this semester break of this christmas break I hope i’ll be able to go back. i’m egging for december because it’s snowing by then! i love the snow. i haven’t felt snow since.. last last december.
- my family is coming here june. weeee. can you believe that this coming june 7th, it will have been a: 1. year since I’ve been here; 2. a year since I haven’t been back home; 3. a year since I’ve seen my family; 4. a year since I’ve graduated from highschool (I legit graduated from high school and the day after I was on a plane); 5. a year since I’ve had pancakes; 6. a year since so many other things i probably can’t name at the moment

IM NOT JOKING ABOUT THE PANCAKES THING.
- i can’t talk straight, my voice. gone.  
- i’m nearly broke. i think that’s why i’m mostly going home, i have family there that actually forces me to eat. lmao. and as if i don’t eat a lot here but at least in there its free food 24/7?  

hi, im currently eating peanut butter and bread and look at my cookie jar, it’s nearly done! and i only have about 2 slices of bread left and i just bought the loaf yesterday.
i went out again today - to buy food. pointless. i basically go out on weekdays to buy food. 

and i still haven’t started studying for my final which is by the way like tomorrow. oh, well. 

starbucks can never spell my name right. which is why I make sure I spell it out for them when i order now. 

though funnily enough ever since i got here about two or three baristas have correctly guessed that it’s a combination of names, haha.