so, i changed my description to me being 20. Cause i just turned 20.
i still remember when i made my tumblr and wrote i was 17. Since then, I just changed my age o_o 18, 19, and now 20… the rest has been the same im pretty sure since then.
weird. like if im in the classroom or doing work related to school time goes by so. freakin. slow. but then when im having fun in my life (which is rarely, I assure you) i go: whoah. it was 6 months ago since I went to Tops? It was a year since I met you? 2 years since I’ve seen you?
Weird..
/ramblings
everything that was right at the wrong time.
jane mia and i just earlier bored.
so, turning 20 tomorrow.
what i have done at the age of 19:
- read numerous pages of shit i dont have interest in
- get calluses
- mosquito bites
- eyebags
- write on my notebooks endlessly
- sit on my ass 6 times a week for about 12 hours minimum
- have no life
- have no leisure
basically, i have no fun mostly.
its okay, today starts a new life for me. i’ve made a revised list of goals. i have no
priority but.. no one for now since im alone.
here’s to me being 20. im not even remotely excited.
these juicy tubes… swear. i think it was freshman year of high school, i got this entire set (i think it was more even, i remember having blue and purple) for christmas.
i barely even used it.
i remember moving to texas by senior year and i still had these. THREE YEARS AFTER. i was like.. lol okay. now i wonder where they are. maybe they’re with my mommy.
shows you how you think you want something so much and once you have them you.. actually idk what the moral of this story is. im weird. nvm. /story
clinicals, i would be saying, if i studied in america.
but nope. i am not studying in america and it is not called clinicals here.
i have to be at the hospital. by 5. …okay.
bullet pointing my life so far tumblr and i aren’t friends anymore:
+ sinulog was today. its the shittiest ever. last year i got cramps and i had to get a piggy back ride and people were singing Ave Maria to me in the streets but its okay.. at least it was fun. Today is just shitty. Shitty to the max and boring.
+ Tired of my life
+ i love my brothers and my daddy. I’m thankful they’re here, I finally once again have people - family, that understand me and love me no matter what I do and what I say.
+ I miss my mommy.
+ Caught up on New Girl, Once Upon A Time… makes me day brighter. Modern Family is next on the list and im excited. Never fails to make me happy.
+ I know i’m the epitome of lame but it hurts my dear precious heart when my own grandmother calls me lame. I didn’t even know she knew that word existed.
+ what is a relationship when you dont even act like you’re in a relationship. tired. exhausted. go away. continue prioritizing squirrels for all i care, i’m tired.
my baby brother and I :) heee. i love him very much. he’s 9 but i treat him like he’s 2. i don’t kid.
also my hair’s been short for more than a week now. i’m still not used to it. but whatcha gonna do, i was annoyed by it being frizzy and ugly already. oh well. idk as long as its not annoying anymore idk if i look like a man. its ok. convenience wins.
+ me is going to boracay in a few days? im excited.
+ i miss my parents. they feel so bad that i couldn’t go home this sem break they gave me a massive amount of money one time i was so shocked.
+ im tired of this bullshit and hopefully i can get over it for real this time. immature nonsense and irrational arguments, plus 150% pride? its ridiculous. i have no idea how i got sucked into it.
+ i passed all of my classes.. yay. second semester starts in a little more than a week. im trying to think positive.
+ my friend Ashlie from back home got married. at 19. Her husband is 29. we used to talk about it senior year and im supposed to be one of her bridesmaid. she looks so beautiful and im a little sad that i couldnt witness it and the marriage in person.
+ alberto’s pizza and i… good dinner friends. every day every night. same with nutella and bread
+ thinking positively about the near future and the.. far future. currently. for my sake.
douchebag jar! winning
in my dormroom we officially have a douchebag/curse jar. its hilarious, lmao. one peso per douchy comment/curse word. we even signed a contract. its legit, we’re trying to practice being better catholics so that we’re more moral people. …idk what i just typed. haha.
I’ve never met anyone that sleeps in an automatic split second like how Gil does. It amuses me. lol.
yesterday, september 21st, was the worst day that i ever lived through.
+ i spilt water on myself early in the morning
+ i dropped my laptop and used it as a weapon
+ because of me my friends apartment key broke
+ my allergies are getting worse
+ some CI bitched about my shoes
+ i made an unnecessary scene in front of people
+ i wasted my money on lots of choco crunchies
+ and yesterday i got my period. again. the last time i had it? 13 days ago.
thats twice in one month. idek anymore.
every kind of life has ended for me until semester break, which is on October. If i’m not at room 325 the entire day then i’m at the bathroom for the majority of the day. This sucks monkey balls.
goodbye life, it was nice getting to know you again during summer
very, very awkward.
i think i do weekly bloggings now. i’m a creepo. just because i have such free time on my hands.
+ that pretty, pretty girl right next to me is my friend. oh, and she’s my classmate. she’s also shifting to another major. my class went from 60+ to 29 students and all my other close friends decide to go back home and then she decides to major in Dentistry. WHY YOU GOTTA LEAVE ME, CHAM. she has a tumblr, and i will be flooding her askbox every single day to guilt her conscience and i will not feel bad for it.
+ I finally bought the first two seasons of Castle (!!). I’ve been meaning to watch it since - i don’t even know, last century, but school has been stressing the life out of me like nothing i’ve ever experienced before, that I only even watch Grey’s Anatomy out of the shows i used to watch back home- and even then I’m usually two days late on seeing an episode. Summer schedule has been free and so im finally going to watch this damn show and those adorable people.
+ I have this friend that texts me every saturday what im doing. every saturday past curfew time. and most of the time, i text back that im at my dorm. and then he tells me to sneak out and he’ll pick me up, which i would gladly do, but a) there’s basically only one way out my dorm and b) elohel what excuse will i give to the dorm guards. everytime i say its impossible, and yet he still insists on texting me this every weekend. i think this is becoming an inside joke between us. how cute.
jatienzaa said: so who’s going baaaack!?
mark! :/ unfair you, how’s your vacation by the waay?
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